S.O.S. Sunday OH! SNAP! #1

 

I found this Meme over at Mommying On The Fly..

It's all about sharing your photographs every Sunday....  She has a different Theme each week that can be found on her page HERE..

This Week it's Architecture...










Hope you enjoy, and if hope you get a chance to join in..
Would love to see every ones Pictures...

Amends

Who would have thought... Several years ago I had such anger towards you.  Such resentment.  I did not even want to acknowledge we were family, couldn't even fathom the thought of breaking bread with you. 

I have always dealt with my demons a little different than most, but one common thread was the anger.  It was like an atomic bomb every time someone mentioned your name....

But NOW?

I can say, I LOVE you little brother, and am so blessed to have you in my life...

Social Friday

Once upon a time... Blah blah blah... tell me at WHAT age exactly does it happen, that yor parents start acting like they're your CHILDREN?  MAN, I knew it would happen one day, but I was kind of preparing myself for it to be when they turn 90 or something... My grandmother is 80, and still lives alone, runs her own errands, and is totally self sufficient.  So, why is it that my parents in their late 50's are incompetent?  Unable to pick up a phone and make a call, unless it's personal or to eachother? Unable to manage their own finances?  I do EVERYTHING short of wiping their bums.  You know, I think I'm READY for a change. 

So, I went to the mall yesterday to do a little shopping, and Lane Bryant had an AWESOME sale... and like I've been programmed to do for so many years... I shopped...

Dug through racks, found a few gems, and once my arms were full... I realized, WTH am I doing???? My goal is to NOT shop here EVER again... and YES, I dropped the merchandise a ran......

I totally forgot to add in my raging trance writing yesterday.....


I was pleasantly surprised to look down and for the first time in a VERY long time.... I did NOT see my stomach... a TON of BOOB, but no belly... better watch out toes.... I'm on the look out for ya...

OK.. so, I've been home two days now and although some things are going well, others are just not jiving with me at all.. and I hit a new low today... Meltdowns aren't cute on my two 2yr olds, but even uglier on 37 yr olds... trust me, mine was NOT pretty today...
I didn't walk into this expecting it to be a walk in the park, but I guess reality is harsher than imagination...
I have been having a hard time with getting water down, first of all.. I have been soooooo thirsty... I want to GULP, it down, and know I can't. I'm not sure if it's supposed to be baby sips or regular sips.. so I take a few tiny sips, and put it down, and my problem is by the time I remember to sip again it's meal time... and NO drinking with meals right?? Let's not get into the protein... I HATE what I have, but took a trip to GNC this afternoon, I must admit, My husband had to hold me up during our trip to walmart, because it came to a point I couldn't even push the cart. It was scary....

Now... Head Hunger... that is what has made me the MOST miserable this morning and the cause to my major meltdown... and it makes me angry when folks tell me, but this is for the better... No STICK Sherlock.... Just don;t try and tell me what it's like in my shoes unless you've worn them... It infuriates me... I know I'll appreciate it and they are only trying to help, but when you're dealing with folks telling you it ONLY food, but can;t quit smoking, or their caffeine addictions... come on man it's ONLY a cigarette... right??? but this morning was rough for me... ALL I could think about was all I could NOT have especially that BIG MAC... and I KNOW I was NOT hungry...

armed and ready for a better tomorrow...