Today was a VERY long day... I dropped off the twins with my mother, the Queen of hearts and spent the day getting poked and prodded...
EKG, Chest X-Rays, Blood Work, the nutritionist visit, and of course my favorite... the Quack...

I was pleasantly surprised with the visit with the nutritionist... But the psychologist???? He reminded me of the creepy guy on the Frosty cartoon... You know the Magician, I think his name was Mr. Hinckle... and he was MEAN... But I could feel him prodding into my head, trying to get his little fingers in there and swoosh around... I let the tips in, and he only saw what I wanted him to see.. lol.. Just hope it was enough... He did however convince me that the Bypass was a better choice, and we're back on THAT ban wagon..

Wish me Luck!!!

I am having second thoughts on the Bypass... I think maybe I should do the lap band... this is such HUGE decision... and not something you can get a do-over on... so many pros and cons...

weight it out
weight it out
weight it out


Now get some SLEEP!!!


Wish me Luck!!!

I atended a WLS support roup meeting today, and left in tears, I am still in tears... The stories are so inspiring, and it felt good to sit somewhere and NOT be judged for who you are... No finger pointing, no stares, no embarassing announcements over a loud speaker... long story...


I will hold on to this optimism....


Wish me luck!!

First appointment, and Doc is cool as hell.. CC got to go with me too, which made a world of difference... Doc explained that due to the fact that I have no other comorbidities, he would be fine doing either procedure... The Lap band or Bypass...

Great... I HATE making decisions...

Good thing he stepped out to make a phone call, it gave CC and I a moment to chat... He swears because of my obsessive nature the Bypass would be better for me... I think he is right... If I don;t feel like someone has punched me in the ass every time I eat the wrong foods, I'll be right back at 300lbs in no time... sooooo.. By pass it is..

Wish me Luck!!!

Today was supposed to be my first appointment with the surgeon... and YUP it was canceled... they wouldn't have anything else for 2 months....

solution???? find me another surgeon... this is ridiculous and unacceptable... I'll be in next month...

Wish Me Luck!!!

I have decided to look further into this bariatric surgery, and the Lap band seems more my speed. I just went to a seminar last night, and the information is a bit overwhelming... Truly would have wished for my Hubby to have been there, but unfortunately the Cheshire Cat was deployed... story of our lives... I did however leave there feeling a sense of purpose, I felt a little bit more sure that this is something I may benefit from...

There are support group meetings and it is a requirement to go to at least one before they schedule you a surgery date... Meetings are not new to me, nor are they my friend... issues stick to me and haunt me, even when they are NOT my own...


Wish me luck!!!!

I know sometimes, I'm all over the place, and I personally feel like all I do is complain. I can't help but to harbor on the negative... I really do need to change. I need to start seeing the lighter side of things. I DO smile, I DO find pockets of Happiness.. It's not like this for Everyone? is ANYONE always happy?